I used to say “you can never control feelings”, and I thought I was right. I thought we had no future together, and I assured you that. But funny enough, it all changed. I found myself thinking bout you – 24/7, every minute, every second of my life. In the past, you’d always be there for me no matter what. But now, I feel like we’ve drifted so far apart, and that i’ve got no one to turn to. I would be proud and say, i’ve finally love you, not the conventional way. In a whole new way, which I’ve never felt before.
Never knew how I would be so affected by it. I used to be your top priority. Now? Where do I even stand? You used to care about me, and had me under your radar. And everything now have changed. You would walked miles for me, and swim oceans. Now, it seems like me doing everything. I put you first, like how you used to. Where do i stand now?
You said you’ll love me forever, but how long is forever? If it’s 3 months +, then that’s not forever. I know, i had did things in the past that might’ve upset or angered you. But guilty as I am, i feel like the tables have turned, and that you’re doing exactly the same to me. I miss us. I miss the times we spent together, and I miss being love by you. You are the first person that made me felt loved, wanted, great, wonderful, hot and needed. And now, you’re all i think about. The ghost of us haunts me everyday, and here i am waiting for your reply. It sucks when I’m the one who wants you now when you don’t even want me anymore. I feel like I should try more, but who am I compared to your other suitors? You can have numbers within your fingers, and I’m just a decimal in your grasp.
I live, breathe and think of nothing but you everyday. The thought of you being with someone else just scares me. I would cry buckets just having a wild thought. I would never reply anyone else’s text until I get a reply from you, but after how many times do I have to prompt you for a reply? And, you’re now doing things like – watching movie, going out and staying over, with/at other people. It kills me to see that the things we used to do, you are doing them with someone else. Someone better. I really want to know where I stand in your life. Am I still important as I was? You said you wouldn’t love anyone the way you did for me, yet you went around seeing other boys. And you talk about true love like you know what it is. I, on the other hand, would NEVER have done that. You get my hopes up each time, and everytime you put me down – I am devastated and nothing crushed my ever more than that. I don’t know why I’m so affected by the things you gave me 😦 Please, have me back on the top of your list. I love you, I love us being together. You were and are my everything.
I’m sorry if I messed up…