WHAT ODD

Hello 🙂

There’s always a time whereby you’d look at someone who used to mean the world to you, but then the next time you even think of them, you feel hatred. Not the kind of hatred that makes you angry, but those that tear you apart and wish you’d never hate them. It’s funny how both phrases “out of sight, out of mind” and “absence makes the heart grow fonder” would have a huge impact here.

For someone who you’d been dying to see for months, all of a sudden left you, with no reasons. You see past their lies, and you know that they’re tired of you. They can come up with a million reasons to make you think you’re at fault, but in reality, they were the ones who made you blood turn black. You know it’s only right to blame yourself. But then again, you’re not at fault, not the slightest bit.

There’s no one better than myself, that I finally see. You’re just desperate and in need of someone, someone who everyone would agree is better than me. But looking at it, you can have neither one now, for both of us are on higher levels than you. I used to put you first, now you’re not even here. Sorry to say, but if you think you can make someone feel how you used to feel, then you’re wrong. For I’ve never felt happier or free-ier. Thanks to you.

I used to swim rivers just for you, now they’re as polluted as your heart. Your heart ebbs for someone better, but it pours away and drenches yourself instead. You shattered something you already knew was broken, what further impact is there? Ha. Who’s gonna have the last laugh now? I hope it’s me, for you’re nothing but a joke, and I wish the next time we meet, it’d be your last…

~ RAM

BEST OF ME 💪

Hello 🙂 So here is yet another blog post, and this time – no more negativity 🙂 Like my previous post, however, this time, it’s so much more… free. After a long time of reflecting, I finally found out what’s the best for me. Nothing. Throughout my entire life, I feel that it takes a long time to develop feelings for someone, and at the same time – it takes a much more longer time to stop. And because of that, I feel that I’m possibly not going to share my feelings with anyone else, and live a much happier life.

As anyone might know, there’s another person – two actually who came into my life not so recently. One of them whom I feel more… attracted to, and the other who I treated just as a friend. The former was not as committed and yearn to have me (Call them A). The latter however, was desperate (not trying to sound mean at all :/, and let’s call them B). And I’ve been spending SO much time with B, it’s kinda like replacing them with A. However, no matter how much I tried to get either off my mind. I’m still thinking of A more. B has been nothing but nice and kind to me, whereas A… Idk where I stand in their life right now. 😔

So after much contemplation, I figured things out. Why would you place someone else’s life on par with yours? You should be living your own happy life, and not caring about anything! If people wants to come into your life and make you feel happy – I’m more than happy for that. And if they wanna come in just to leave soon after – then no. You’re not even going to get to see the best of me. If you’d only put in effort and make me as happy as the other would – you’d know why I’m so disappointed in you. You know it clearly, on when was the last time we texted, the last time we met, or the last time we spoke. And how can you tell someone you like them like that?

So right now, I feel that I’m just gonna let everything go. With my impending workload, IDK how to deal with everything all at once… 💤 But until 2 weeks time from now – whichever my heart goes to – I will follow it 🙂

~ RAM

LIKE HONEY 🍯

Good evening 🙂 It’s been some time, and I feel that this time, it’s going to be a much happier post 🙂

As anyone might know, I’ve recently been through something really demoralizing and hellish 😔 but I’ve managed to overcome that, and now, everything seems so much more positive 👍 Hmm the only thing that’s possibly pulling me down is the fact that school is reopening tomorrow, and the start of a new semester… Can’t get use to that yet 😴 Why does time fly when you’re having fun huh?

So anyway, this last week of the holidays was pretty well spent… On Monday, I hung out with Stanley once again, and we watched “Annabelle” which was disappointing because of all the buzz, and I was expecting so much better tbh 😑 On Tuesday, I went out with Frank, planning on getting a guitar, but it was too pricey so I’m just going to have to save up for that 🔫💸 Wednesday and Thursday was pretty boring because all I did was to work. However, Friday was the best 😌 USS HHN with Douglas, Frank and his preschool friend, Bernett 🙂 that was one of my favorite and most memorable days in my life 🙂 After that, Douglas stayed over for the night, and we practically stayed up all night. And Saturday, the two of us went USS again 😂 which was also another memorable day 🙂 And today… the day before school… I’m here in United Square Starbucks, chilling my life away, and enjoying my sight 😌😏 heh

I can honestly say, this week is by far the best I’ve ever had 🙂 The people I met, the things I did and just somethings went pretty well 😚 Like honey, I’ve pretty much had the sweetest and stickiest memories :>

But most importantly, every little text from a certain person makes me feel so much better ☺️

Once someone better comes along, your old one is as good as non existent

A NEW LIFE

Hi there! It’s been 2 weeks (?) I guess since I last blogged… So many reasons why I was on hiatus, but mainly because of work 😴

Hmm I decided to recount the number of times I met up with amazing people, but that would’ve taken too much time, mehh… Anyways, for this past two weeks, it was nothing but positivity and happiness. 😊 SO SO SOOOO glad for those people who’ve been there for me unconditionally and tolerating me (and my crap) heh, and also for just being there for me whenever I need a listening ear, or some advice 🙂

So for the first week (aside from work), I hung out with most people from my secondary school 😐 Watched “Boxtrolls” with Sean, and then chilled a little the entire night. And some days later, I went out in the evening with Stanley, to have dinner and then we caught a midnight movie – “The Maze Runner”, it was one of the best days of my life, if I must say (despite not getting the pancakes we planned) 🙂 Hmm… Comparing both films, “Boxtrolls” was sooooo much less enticing than “The Maze Runner”, but nonetheless, it’s the company that matters ☺️ And on Friday that week, I caught up with two of my closest friends – Benjamin and Neon 🙂 We literally just sat at Starbucks for 2 hours, until someone suggested to go to the nearest lan (totally not me), had a blast that day tho :>

And, for this week, I met the most AMAZING person ever 😌 He’s a really really REALLY nice person, and a really good friend 🙂 Hmm… We went to town (ohh ps, all of the aforementioned are in town too lol), and watched “The Purge: Anarchy”. It was a really intense film IMO, however I prefer the first film tho, as it makes a lot more sense, and everything fits Although, this was still good tho. (Yes, Douglas this one’s for you :)) And then, I also met two other fun people – HUMPHREYYY 😜 and JARON 😄, and we finally watched “If I Stay” (Chloe Grace Moretz?!?!?!) OUHHH, and the churros we had for dinner was a bomb (I couldn’t finish mine hurhur) Again this week, I met Douglas, and we hung out with Humphrey 👀 ermmm… I think we had dinner somewhere (or did we?) and then hung out at Humphrey and my usual spot – the Gateway Bridge. 😏

But what happened this week, which was really amazing – was going to Douglas’ house and baking M&M cookies, after a morning movie of “Afterimages” (Who does that?) 🙂 And no, the cookie turned out terrible… We couldn’t even finish baking all the dough 😿 But the process of baking was truly memorable, I would wish for another day like this 😦 But time passes too quickly that day.

Yes… There are definitely more adventures than this, but I can’t recall all of them… So here are just some which I can think of heh 🙂

Anyway, pictures will be uploaded onto my Photo Journal page 😀 Thanks for stopping by once again 🙂

~ RAM

NEW WEEK

Hi there! It’s been AGES since I last blogged here, huh? Anyway, it’s like the third week of my holidays ✊ and it’s kinda boring now. Applied for a job, and no reply yet So, basically all I do now is chill at home, sleep, eat, hang out with friends and wish to be physically next to someone. (Yes I got hitched to the most wonderful person on earth :))

First things first, I’m together with the most A M A Z I N G person on earth, and I couldn’t be any more grateful for that! Ermm… It’s coming to a month now, and I would wish for nothing but for this to go on forever ❤ However, sad to say, I feel like we’re kinda “on the rocks” these days. 😦 I really really REALLY R E A L L Y do wanna be with special person for the rest of my life… Just trying to get everything up and as positive as possible. 🙂 This person really do make me feel like the best I’ve ever been. I’ve never felt more blessed or happy, and I truly hope I am too, to this person. The past was such a beautiful thing, when we had so many wonderful memories together :’) I wish for more of these and I pray really hard for this relationship to be stronger 💪

Anyway, I spent the last day of August with several people at Color Run 2014! It was one of the fun-nest days of my life! It was really crazy and hyper. We were actually volunteers for the event, and our job was to basically splash these blue powder onto oncoming runners. Although we didn’t get to actually participate in the event, we managed to dip ourselves into a full fledged Smurfs for the day. It was embarrassing yet luscious for us, as we wore out ponchos to take public transport. 😛

SO MANY OTHER THINGS TO TALK ABOUT THO. Like the other day I went out the 3 idiots (whom also went for the Color Run) for Shisha/Hookah, and crazy stuff happened! :X Prior to that, we watched “Guardians of the Galaxy” in iMax (Woo!), followed by a short trip to Underground, Scape, lunch at 18 Chefs and CHURROS (due to by Hispanic roots heh). Hmm… Watched “Lucy” with bae, too, and it was a pretty fun day (everyday with bae is fun actually). AND, I invited bae to sleepover (first time I’m inviting someone over to sleep). It was nothing short of an awesome day, and then pizza for lunch/dinner the next day :9 *I miss those days* Ooh, and an impomptu waffles date with Alviana! It was a great catchup! 👍 Heh, a lot of other crazy stuff happened within this 2 weeks too! Just too much to write 😅

Heh, anyway goodbye for now, and good night 🌚 (this is like my new fav emoji) , until next time! 🙂

 

~ RAM

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